09 August 2005


So much for no arthritis pain. OH MY GOD!! I don't know if it's just because it hasn't hurt in a while, but it hurts so much. I even hurt in new places, like my elbows. The fact that it's been threatening to rain for the past couple of days isn't helping either. I hope I'm hurting this much because it's going to monsoon of something.
Well at least I didn't feel like shit when I woke up this morning. I think I only got 5 1/2 hours total, but I finally feel like I slept. I guess shutting the lights off, finally, is helping me sleep better. Or I'm just getting used to it. I felt like such crap yesterday, and I thought I slept a good amount, I couldn't even get out of bed to change him, I'm so glad I have such a wonderful husband. He even offered to change him at 4 in the morning last night!
I must point out the trend that has continued most of my life. All the places I lived in in college got better right after I moved out of them. This place is becoming no exception. They put those cool sticky stuff on my steps so I don't fall down them anymore, and they are FINALLY putting a speed bump on the turn of death! How many times Fiona and I almost got killed on that bend and they put in a speed bump 5 days before I move out, WHAT THE HELL?!?!
Oh well...
I need to find something to stop the pain...

06 August 2005

Moving Day #1

What a day! And I didn't even more anything. I'm, yet again, so happy that my Mom was here. We brought so much stuff, and I thought the crap would be billowing out into the hall way. But thanks so Mom, the room is in nice organized piles, and I can tell what's in every box. Unpacking will be so easy!!
Today was a little overwhelming with all the people. Again, it was a little odd that there was stuff we could be doing and everyone s just hanging out. Which I understand, since Tom's family hasn't seen the baby, plus they don't do thinks like my family does. It'll all get done eventually.
Maybe I can squeeze in a nap, since the boy is passed out from the heat and he action.

04 August 2005

Getting Better...

I'm really starting to get the swing of this. Even when he wakes up in the middle of the night, I stay pretty calm and collected getting him changed and feeding him. It's odd, there is no longer any time of day or night that feels really early or really late. Oh the things that have changed in my life. I do, however, feel like I let him cry too much. When he's crying in the morning after I've decided to go back to sleep, I let him cry and I try to sleep through it. I admit that this is hard since he's a foot from my head, but I still try. Does that make me a bad mom?
I can't wait till this move is done. I owe my Mother my life!! Even more than I did before.
I had my first glimpse of what September is going to bring - the schedule of meetings is posted, and I didn't get one - I guess I'm really leaving and I really don't have a "job" anymore. I'm a Mommy....

01 August 2005

So Much Crying...

So tired. I feel so bad when he just cries and cries, and I don't know why. He's not hungry, he's not dirty, I'm holding him, so he's not lonely - they why is he screaming? I have so much stuff to do with packing and thank yous and taking care of him, and all I do is take care of him. And that's wonderful and all, but I would still like to do some other stuff. I went from being able to do anything one day, to nothing, the next. It's a big adjustment, I should at least have a transition time.
At least I'm too busy to worry. I just wish all this crap in the house wasn't making me freak out!
Off to feed my little man, then maybe I can squeeze in some sleep - I hope....